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Wednesday, 30 May 2012

Good day!

So I thought I'd write a post about having a really good day.

What a breath of fresh air today has been. I can't honestly remember the last day I had where I had no negative thoughts, no anxiety, no stress and no SH thoughts of any kind.

Yesterday I got the move at work I wanted, back to core gardening where I started 5 years ago. For the past 9 months ( since my 7 month sickness period) I've been on seasonal dept and that has involved selling high value garden furniture since February.
I am not cut out to be a sales person I am a sales assistant and am happy to talk to customers about our products but have been hating trying to talk them into buying.
I feel like a weight has been lifted. I'm doing my old job within a great team. I have a great supervisor who looks out for me now and a great line manager.

Today I've felt like I'm flying. I had a couple of cans of energy drink and was on it!
I was focused, not anxious and buzzing. Every customer query I had I could solve and things just flowed.
To get through a 6 hour shift without the diazepam, without shaking, without oozing anxiety and without desperately waiting for home time has just been amazing.

Long may it last.

Thanks for reading x
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